Friday, October 31, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 31, 2025

 


Friday, October 31, 2025

Time: 4:38 PM
Song:  Welcome to the Jungle
Artist: Guns N’ Roses
Mode of Consumption: Listening to “Liked” Songs playlist on Spotify.

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/0G21yYKMZoHa30cYVi1iA8?si=deb6c79b77e24cdb

I’ve reached the climax of the story. The main character confronts the antagonist. The stakes are high.

How do I write out of it?

Does the hero save the day? How though? He’s an unprepared human against a vampire.

I always feel a bit lost in a jungle when it comes to discovering satisfactory endings. I can tinker with sentences and change the setup here and there, but finding the right ending is a weakness.

I’m not a sucker for happy endings, but that doesn’t mean they should never happen. Is there a twist? Is there a lesson? Have I been hinting to the end the entire time?

My favorite Stephen King series “The Dark Tower” has a section in it where King addresses the reader about endings. Basically, he writes one because that is the custom of the land. The reality, an ending is just another way of saying goodbye and rarely is that a good thing.

So, I have two days to resolve this one. I will likely read through it a few dozen times, trying to hear the secret buried in my words.


Thursday, October 30, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 30, 2025

 



Thursday, October 30, 2025

Time: 5:13 PM
Song:  Little Things
Artist: Bush
Mode of Consumption: Listening to MP3s on shuffle on the way home from work.

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/0u3fpnD1ua1T0M0rclUJHj?si=f9018e758308409c

I continue to spin my wheels through this story for the writing contest. I’ve finally moved a couple characters to a party hosted by vampires. There are little glimpses of personalities starting to emerge, but I’ve yet to clamp down on the plot. 

What I have done is indulge in tropes and witticisms that I find amusing, but stuff like that is like pepper, too much and you ruin the meal. 

I find I am doing it most in dialogue, creating a 90s-esque sarcasm to everything. I might as well have Chandler Bing pop in and say, “Could this BE more campy?” 

Camp. That’s where this is veering toward. Something that loses all seriousness. I suppose that’s my attitude toward a genre like vampire romance. You can either lean hard into the vampires, make everything dark and asexual. Maybe even drift into horror. 

Or, you handle with a non-serious touch, winking at the clichés and the tropes, rolling eyes at the Twlight-ness of the genre, and then hope to subvert expectations. 

I sound like I know what I am talking about. Truth is, I just need to write until I get to an end, and then focus on turning it into a story.

Wednesday, October 29, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 29, 2025

 


Wednesday, October 29, 2025

Time: 6:05 PM
Song:  Pink Moon
Artist: Nick Drake
Mode of Consumption: Listening to MP3s on shuffle while working out.

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/4KROoGIaPaR1pBHPnR3bwC?si=dafd7aa3b1124f04

I entered a writing contest this week but have really struggled to find the time and the motivation to tackle the prompts. Last night I wrote an opening scene but could already feel like it was something I would need to cut.

It opens with a vampire getting a ride from the airport in an Uber. He is getting a ride home before going to a party. There were some clever lines in there, but nothing really pushing the plot forward.

For good measure, I have the vampire attack the driver at the end of the ride.

I think I must attack the prompt differently, I can tell that right now. By contest rules, I ,must remain vague here. I have a specific character I must work into the story. I thought at first, they’d be a secondary character met at the party, but I am wondering if they shouldn’t be the main character.

There needs to some sort of romantic entanglement. A party. And vampires.

The Writer’s Digest I am reading is all about leaning into the weird. I want to do that here, but I am struggling to find the right weird path to move down.

I have until Saturday to get 2,000 words down, so I will have to choose one pretty soon here.


Tuesday, October 28, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 28, 2025

 


Tuesday, October 28, 2025

Time: 5:50 PM
Song:  The City of New Orleans
Artist: Steve Goodman
Mode of Consumption: Listening to “The Essential Steve Goodman” vinyl album.

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/6sQv6XMvSp0PB0cuuS6Dfz?si=f315bd4e4b204014

“So, was this Arlo or Woody Guthrie that sang this?” Jodi asked. 

“Well, it was Arlo, but I don’t really know who did this first or wrote it. We’ll have to check the writing credit on the label when it’s done.”

We finish eating and do dishes. I take the album off the turntable. 

“So, who has the writing credit?” She asks. 

“It doesn’t say.” 

She reaches for her phone. 

“Goodman wrote it and released it. Guthrie released it a year later and that’s when it first became a hit. Willie Nelson’s version went to No. 1 on the country charts.” 

When I do a search on Spotify before starting this post, Goodman’s version isn’t even in the first list of suggestions. There’s Guthrie and Nelson and Johnny Cash and John Denver and Jimmy Buffett. Goodman comes farther down the list than you would expect for being the original. 

I picked up this album at the sale on Saturday. It was one of two Goodman albums I bought. We have three Goodman albums already in the collection. Jodi was the first to get interested in him. I’ve grown fond of him as he was a contemporary of John Prine. 

In fact, it was a disappointment Saturday that I didn’t find any Prine albums considering there were several Goodman albums in the lot. 

 

Monday, October 27, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 27, 2025

 


Monday, October 27, 2025

Time: 11:12 AM
Song:  Hunger Strike
Artist: Temple of the Dog
Mode of Consumption: Listening to Lithium on Sirius.

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/0W7AbEauB7cP4pidLclApe?si=74392daa48d946f6

I am surrounded by steel and engines and dust. I am sitting in the driver’s seat of our truck outside of the Cimco Recycling in Sterling waiting for Jodi to return. 

We’ve just delivered a load of old wire that was used for electric fence around the hay field. It was coiled in the bed of truck as we pulled onto the scale minutes earlier. I stopped until the light turned green and I could proceed into the wilderness that is the junkyard. 

Straight ahead there was a mountain of some sort of ground up dirt. It was hard to tell exactly what it was comprised of.

We turned a left and split between two semis before coming to the mounds of junk. Old appliances. Hunks of metal. So much stuff that it’s hard to even distinguish what the objects once were. We backed to a pile, and we then heaved the coils of wire into the conglomeration of junk. 

We left then, getting weighed again, before pulling before the office. 

Jodi was gone awhile. The place was unusually busy. Workers buzzing around in forklifts and skid loaders. Semis barreling through filled with who knows what. And other people like us, bringing a load of junk to get rid of. 

Jodi finally returns and she has four dollars and twenty cents. Not enough to buy lunch, but the extra space made by getting rid of the wire made it worth the trip. 

 

My Music Journal 2025: October 26, 2025

 



Sunday, October 26, 2025

Time: 6:14 PM
Song:  The Devil Went Down to Georgia
Artist: The Charlie Daniels Band
Mode of Consumption: Listening to the radio on the way back from Yorkville.

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/383Xl5QTigwj3QiA3Qc6S7?si=550a9e7f6e2545a9

Dusk settled over the nearly empty crop land of north central Illinois as we drove west on Route 30. It’s the path we take from my sister’s home in Yorkville, a two-lane roadway that takes us through towns called Shabbona, Hinckley, and Big Rock. Just little burgs with main streets situated on Route 30. 

Each town has a Casey’s gas station, a couple bars, maybe a café, and a few other businesses. 

Route 30 once was a major thoroughfare in the era before the tollway. The kind of road that people ventured down and stopped at little motels for the night before going onward west to the horizon the next day. 

We’re riding with my parents, who have the radio tuned to a station playing old country. We’ve heard Johnny Cash, Johnny Paycheck, Dolly Parton, and Charley Pride. Voices of the holler, and the prairie, and the wide-open spaces. 

I think about frontiers. The people that set out west without really knowing where they might end up. People going to the wilderness.

Is the next frontier space? Or is that too vast for humankind? Will we expire the limits of this world before we solve the riddles of extended space exploration? 

Will some brave rocket man face the cosmos fifty years from now with Hank Williams playing in his ears? 

Sunday, October 26, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 25, 2025


 


Saturday, October 25, 2025

Time: 12:51 PM
Song:  Man of Constant Sorrow
Artist: Bob Dylan
Mode of Consumption: Listening to Bob Dylan’s self-titled debut album.

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/3SF5puV5eb6bgRSxBeMOk9?si=1e6a56b1d7084606

We spent this morning at an estate sale that featured 5,000 albums for sale. They had the albums separated into boxes and spread through three rooms on the main floor of the house. 

Dozens of people rifled through boxes, some carried a box of their own to fill. Some came in groups and called out to each other as they found one artist or another. 

One guy seemed intent in displaying his knowledge. A few minutes after arriving, I was across a table from him, and he found a Moby Grape album. 

“Oh, man, someone missed this one,” he said. “If this has the poster inside, it’s a hundred-dollar album.” 

Later he talked about white labels being promos and increasing values. Some of it was interesting, some of it was him clearly trying to show off. 

I am not a collector like that. I am generally interested in finding albums that I find interesting or artists that I like. 

Such as this album. The jacket isn’t in the greatest shape, but it’s OK. The actual vinyl is in immaculate shape. Pretty astounding since I am pretty sure it’s from 1962. I liked getting it because it’s Dylan’s first album, and while most of it is covers like this tune, it’s still the first impression most of the world had of Dylan. 

The liner notes are glowing, of course, but having read hundreds of these things, I also know that you’re likely to get as glowing of a write up for some artist that never released anymore albums. This is Bob Dylan, he lived up to the hype. 

In all, I bought 10 albums, a nice number, and I wasn’t at all concerned how much any of them were worth. 

Friday, October 24, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 24, 2025

 


Friday, October 24, 2025

Time: 6:25 PM
Song:  They’re Red Hot
Artist: Eric Clapton
Mode of Consumption: Listening to radio while cleaning in the garage.

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/4xEfHJYhgd2YoDBFM8nvk7?si=da0f628ab3954d84

Somewhere on the interwebs there is a clip of Eric Clapton from some concert in the 1970s where he goes on a drug-fueled rant about England being for white people. Apparently, this was during some time when England was seeing an influx of immigrants, many from their former colonies such as India. 

It’s kind of a rich argument. That England who imposed its will on other nationalities for the better part of four hundred years, claiming huge swatches of land as part of the United Kingdom, would then dictate that its own island should be restricted for only a small segment of said kingdom. 

I don’t know if these are truly Clapton’s feelings, or if he was so in the thralls of heroin and cocaine that he really didn’t formulate coherent opinions. Although, considering his stances against vaccines in recent years, it’s safe to assume his leanings tend to be conservative, so probably he does prefer that England remain pale in complexion. 

Of course, he’s also a renowned blues and rock guitarist. Irony, thy name is Clapton. This song happens to be a Robert Johnson song. 

So, people of color can’t move to England, and enjoy the freedoms and the social and economic potentials there, but pasty white Clapton can appropriate a black art form to the tune of millions and millions of dollars. 

Nothing wrong with that. 

I personally believe both are OK. I think if someone wants to move to England, especially from places that the country once claimed as theirs and were subjects of said country, they should be allowed to try their hand on that little island. 

I also think if a guy like Clapton can make his guitar plays the blues, it shouldn’t matter what color his skin is. 

Thursday, October 23, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 23, 2025


 

Thursday, October 23, 2025

Time: 6:30 PM
Song: (Remember Me) I’m the One Who Loves You
Artist: Dean Martin
Mode of Consumption: Listening to vinyl album “(Remember Me) I’m The One Who Loves You.

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/1q2RbUwPCCvO97Mx0VygiX?si=99966c0906fd4712

Upon arriving home tonight, I changed and then went back outside to sweep the floor of the garage. This Saturday we will be hosting our annual Halloween Weenie Roast and Hayrack Ride.

Usually, we spend all of Saturday preparing the garage for the party, but this year, there is a sale on Saturday that we both (especially me) want to go to. It’s an estate sale in Rochelle, IL (about forty minutes away), and it features among many other things, nearly 5,000 records for sale. That’s too many for me to skip. 

So, I swept the floor tonight, and Jodi used the shop vac to clean up cobwebs, dust and bugs. Tomorrow, we’ll probably setup the tables, and maybe do a little more cleaning. 

After the work, we warmed up some spaghetti and broccoli. I put Dean Martin on the turntable. 

“It makes it feel a little more like an Italian restaurant with Dino singing,” I said as we started to eat. 

We talked about other things we need to get ready, and Jodi brainstormed what she might make for the party. 

After that, we cleaned the dishes, and then sat on the porch for a while with our dog and cat. 

Wednesday, October 22, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 22, 2025

 



Wednesday, October 22, 2025

Time: 7:40 AM
Song:  Three Fingers
Artist: Buckethead, Saul Williams 
Mode of Consumption: Listening to MP3s on shuffle. 

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/3xACxI8xJOhJ7rHkeDqUS8?si=8dba6f5c1f8e4ffa

I hear the lyrics to this song, I think of some sort dark, mysterious, maybe terrifying character. 

If it was a fantasy novel, perhaps a demon, I forget how Tolkien described it, the Old World maybe. 

My demon maybe rises from some sort of desert cell. Perhaps, an inverted pyramid, where the point is buried miles under the desert floor. At that point, the prison of the demon resides. A small urn, maybe, with strange designs carved on the outside, ancient spells acting as the first defense against this evil spirit. 

What wakens this demon from his otherwise eternal slumber. Maybe a vibration. Vibration by excavation, or maybe three have always been followers of this demon searching for his resting place, hoping to find it, to release this hell back to the planet. 

They’ve somehow deceived the honorable order of guardians, slipped past their watchful eye, and descended into this inverted pyramid. 

It’s a maze, but they’ve read ancient texts describing the layout of this place. They have the sight, even in the dark. 

What will they do when they find the urn? What will happen when they open it?

Who will be the hero to stop it? 

My Music Journal 2025: October 22, 2025

 



Tuesday, October 21, 2025

Time: 6:05 PM
Song:  Windy
Artist: The Association
Mode of Consumption: Listening to The Association “Live” album

Note: Last night at Write On, we were provided with a Word Collage to inspire us to write something. Here is what I came up with. Below also is the collage.




The Exile

The three judges refused to hide their bias. The jury comprised of six elders probably cast their stones before Bela spoke even a word in his defense. The mere illusion of fairness and justice was nonexistent.

Still, he spoke, his breath stupidly wasted.

“Shear conspiracy!” he proclaimed.

“An unwillingness to see the approaching dangers!” he warned.

“Tiresome reliance on antiquated fantasies!” he finished.

None of it won sympathy from this lot. Any ears that might have bent to his cause were barred from the hearing, and even if they had been allowed in the gallery, any outward display of unity would have exposed the underground resistance, ruining years of patient planning and social jockeying.

Bela was screwed.

And so it was, on the third turn of the summer moon of his twentieth year, Bela Alum was cast to the wilderness by the colony of his father and his father’s father. Given nothing but two skins of water, a spear and rations that might last him a week.

**

His escort to the perimeter was comprised of two nameless guards, bulging men adorned with bronze breastplates and feathered helms. Leading them was Snick Rork, the court’s chief bailiff, a round man with thick calves below his burgundy robe. Bela’s hands were bound before him, behind a servant carried the meager possessions he would take into the wilderness.

“You know, my boy, the most dangerous muscle is the jaw,” Snick Rork croaked as they neared the perimeter. “Most other crimes, they might have just taken a finger or a toe, or maybe just put you on mine duty for a month, but if the old jaw weakens and the tongue gets running like yours, they can’t bear to have you around anymore.”

“I seem to remember the colony’s tablets saying something about man’s freedom starts with his tongue.” Bela said, keeping his jaw very tight as he said it. He’d not let a sniveling toad like Snick Rork see his fear.

“Aye, it does, my boy, but that’s why the jaw better be strong to keep it from getting loose.”

Ahead the thirty-foot stone exterior walls of the colony loomed. Beyond that, the wilderness. That’s all it was known as, and the tales of what lay beyond were as wild and unbelievable as the fantasies the elders told of how the colony arrived to this world on flying ships, exiles as it were, from whatever home they had once known.

“Why don’t they just execute me then?” Bela asked.

“To kill is against the code of the colony’s tablets,” Snick said, “you know that as well as I do. Not even the highest judge can shed the blood of the vilest man.”

“So, they exile me, and I die alone out there, probably soon,” Bela said. 

Snick didn’t hide his grin as he turned before the wall. They were in its shadow now; a stone staircase scaled the side to the top.

“Have you ever been to the top of the wall?” Snick asked.

Bela looked straight up.


Monday, October 20, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 20, 2025

 



Monday, October 20, 2025

Time: 7:45 PM
Song:  Rock Yourself
Artist: Locomotiv GT
Mode of Consumption: Listening to “Locomotiv GT” vinyl album. 

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/7svjwMcArQ7a45C5EH371c?si=4ae62e38f4d04742

For the last year or so, I have been running our Write On meetings, and one of the activities that I initiated was studying various published works. That has meant me finding stories, essays, poems, and novel chapters.

For the most part, I have used our discussions to lead me into finding some story or something that builds off the things we’ve learned. For example, I used a selection from Stephen King’s book “On Writing” once, and in it, he contrast between John Steinbeck and Cormac McCarthy. He had one sentence examples. I was able to provide a chapter from “The Road” one month, and then followed that with a chapter from “Of Mice and Men.” 

The last month or so I have really struggled to find something that I have wanted to talk about, and I needed to select something tonight so that I could have it ready to hand out to the rest of the group tomorrow night. 

So, I sat on a stool in our basement and rifled through some of the books that are in garage sale pile. These are books that we have finished reading in the last year or two. 

There was a nonfiction book by David Sedaris. It opened with a chapter where he shares a story from a Halloween in his youth. It was timely in that regards, but I wasn’t sure there was a ton of substance there to discuss.

Next there was a short story book by Richard Russo. I love Russo, but the stories were all pretty long, and I couldn’t remember the details of any of them enough to zero in on one. I’ll have to look around sometime to see if we have any of his novels around. 

Ah, “The Shipping News” by E. Annie Proulx. This is one I’ve mentioned at Write On before. It starts each chapter defining a knot from the “The Ashley Book of Knots.” The opening chapter really leans into the definition to create the main character. 

We have a winner. Yeah!

My Music Journal 2025: October 19, 2025

 



Sunday, October 19, 2025

Time: 11:05 AM
Song:  Strutter
Artist: KISS
Mode of Consumption: Listening to “Double Platinum” album by KISS

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/0UCg6lnG2MXpuEpf8Pk1MV?si=ba9b0b6a20744911

I think I knew of KISS by reputation before I knew them by their music. At best, I have a murky understanding of their history and catalog.

They were the group that wore face paint and costumes. Supposedly they were satanists, hedonists, and everything else that could lead a young person’s mind astray.

I probably heard “Rock and Roll All Nite” first. Then in junior high or early high school, I was exposed to more of their catalog. I liked it fine.

Most of their tunes were either about rock and roll, sex, or love. So, pretty much like every other rock’n’roll band. Much like Ozzy, their reputation was built more on rumor and conjecture than substance.

They’ve never been a group where I have had a strong urge to delve into their entire catalog, feeling like I probably would just get weaker versions of their hit songs. Maybe I should see if I am wrong about that.

I think I’ve heard that Gene Simmons is a favorite among the conservative media, which is another of the weird oddities of our times. A guy that for years endorsed promiscuity and was seen as the root of evil by Christian groups is now a darling of the political right.

Anyways, Ace Frehley died last week, and I know he was the guitarist, and I know that he had left the band at least once. I am not sure there was a reconciliation. Perhaps I should look that up.


Sunday, October 19, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 18, 2025

 



Saturday, October 18, 2025

Time: 12:05 PM
Song:  Welcome to Mystery
Artist: Plain White T’s 
Mode of Consumption: Watching line dancers at Dixon’s Scarecrow Fest. 

Link to the song: https://open.spotify.com/track/0gOzVttapajilgTP4f32xs?si=734631baef274208

Jodi and I shared a plate of nachos and a coke, sitting on a bale of hay at the intersection of two roads in downtown Dixon. It was the town’s Scarecrow Festival. There were food vendors, arts & crafts booths, and various other activities stretching over a few blocks and along the city’s riverfront. 

Jodi’s mom is a part of a line dancing group and they performed for a couple hours near midday during an unseasonable warm and humid October day. For the occasion, the dancers learned a special dance to this song, dressed as witches and carried broomsticks. 

“You think this song is from a play or movie or something?” Jodi asked. 

“I don’t know.” I didn’t. The fact was that I don’t think I had ever heard of it before. 

Once I caught the chorus, I used that to search the song title. 

“Huh, it’s the Plain White T’s” 

“Hmmph.” 

We both agreed that we didn’t think we knew any song by them other than “Hey There Delilah.” That includes owning a CD of theirs at one point, but Delilah was the only song on it that I remember burning off, and I don’t think any of the others caught my ear. I wonder if I still have that CD? 

The dance came to an end, and we decided to go find some dessert.

Friday, October 17, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 17, 2025

 


Friday, October 17, 2025

Time: 7:18 PM
Song:  Sons & Daughters
Artist: The Decemberists
Mode of Consumption: Listening this week’s Playlist Pandemonium list “Boat Songs.” 

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/721tATaNQPPGSuC3dYEI3h?si=4fb37f75d13c4275

Human movement. It’s tale of time from an infant’s first steps to the big ships crossing the big seas. 

It’s a tale that archaeologists and geneticists and historians are still discovering. This group of early humanoids crossing a dried creek bed somewhere Asia, or Viking ship wrecks off the coasts of lands much farther from home than we imagined. 

The finger of time has pointed to Africa as the cradle of homosapiens, but even that tale seems blurrier now than it did twenty years ago. Every few years we find remains of people in a place and from a time we don’t expect. 

It’s almost as if anywhere people moved, they seemed to find more people. How can that be? 

It’s the thing I’ve always wondered about the Bible creation story. Adam and Eve have sons, Cain and Abel. 

When Cain murders Abel, he’s banished to the land of Nod, and there he has a son named Enoch. 

Wait a second? 

If Adam and Eve, were No. 1 and No. 2. 

Where do these people of Nod come from? 

Well a quick Google search suggest that time being funky in those days, that it was hundreds of years and that more descendants of Adam and Eve were born and those offspring begat more offspring. The people of Nod were those offspring living east of Eden. 

The time being different thing is I think the explanation of dinosaurs I got from a pastor or someone when I asked as a child. Those first seven days, for example, extended thousands of years. When animals were first created, among them were dinosaurs. 

By the time God got around to people, the dinosaurs had moved on. I guess that checks out.

The fact is people have always been moving. By land. By sea. Even by air, now. I think that’s why we assume once we get to digging around on Mars, we’ll find more than a few bones there, too. 

Thursday, October 16, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 16, 2025

 



Thursday, October 16, 2025

Time: 7:05 PM
Song:  Bad Company
Artist: Bad Company
Mode of Consumption: Playing on the radio as we leave Dairy Queen parking lot.

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/36vTL8WP4ZoD1bbUaW0V3E?si=d801f2bcd06d43ce

I received the personal message early in the afternoon, asking if one of the lots I had posted on Facebook Marketplace was available. 

I said yes. Nothing back for a few minutes. 

Then: “Where and when can we meet.” 

I am looking at the details of the prospective buyer and there isn’t much on his or her profile. The name appears to be a moniker or handle rather than an actual name. I am leery about giving out my address. There are a number of bots that will start conversations like this. 

I reply: “I get home at 5:30. Where are you coming from?”

The conversation seems to end there. Ah, see if you veer from the script, the bot gives up. 

But I am wrong. When I am driving home, I get a new message. They are in Davenport. That’s about an hour away, and I decide maybe we can arrange a meeting at the Morrison Dairy Queen. Easier for him or her to find. 

The rest goes as planned. Jodi and I rushed a bit through supper, cleaning up, and getting our lunches packed for tomorrow, but still made it in plenty of time. 

The buyer arrived on time, looked over the records, and then forked over the cash. 

Jodi and I went inside and bought a couple Blizzards to celebrate. We saw that the buyer had went through the drive thru. 

A good night with records and ice cream for all. 

My Music Journal 2025: October 15, 2025

 



Wednesday, October 15, 2025

Time: 6:30 PM
Song:  Round and Round
Artist: RATT
Mode of Consumption: Listening to Ratt’s album “Out of the Cellar” on vinyl.

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/6QKToMy6096oooFMGEXije?si=91d23d85b4754f5f

By about 8:15 AM, I wanted to go back to sleep. I was sitting at my work desk, knowing I had a conference call at 9:30 AM, and wanting nothing more than to go home and back to sleep.

Starting on Sunday, I had felt a tickle in my throat, but I thought maybe it was only allergies. I bought some allergy meds, and I thought that would take care of it.

It progressed to more of a cold or flu today. I was exhausted. My chest was congested. My voice was raspy.

I told myself I should try to make it until noon. As the morning progressed, more work came in and I couldn’t pass it off to others.

I took my lunch to the river. I ate slowly, my appetite not great. I reclined the seat in the jeep and closed my eyes for the last ten minutes or so.

I powered through the afternoon, finishing a proposal revision, and leaving at my usual time. When I arrived home, I changed, grabbed a blanket and pillow, and dropped down on the couch.

I remained that way until we ate, and we listened to this album.

“Did we decide if we knew any other RATT songs other that ‘Round and Round?’”

I shrug, my brain is too foggy to think about it.

After that I slept until 9 PM, waking only to have a few grapes, brush my teeth, and go to bed.


Tuesday, October 14, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 14, 2025




Tuesday, October 14, 2025

Time: 7:38 PM
Song:  Sometime Around Midnight
Artist: The Airborne Toxic
Mode of Consumption: Listening to our downloaded songs in Apple Music. 

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/7Hn0bZgca6QFz6OyKkvAi6?si=c29c8410078945d9

Keeping the financial books for a small church isn’t rocket science. Most weeks it amounts to depositing the offering into the bank and paying whatever bills we might have. 

The bills for our church are few. The pastor. The custodian. The donation to the synod. Plus, electric and LP gas. There are a couple other bills that are less regular. The big one is insurance. 

The insurance bill is the biggest next to the pastor. It always feels like we are putting out a lot money that we’ll never get back. 

I mean, I am the guy doing the books, so I know that there’s a point in the future here that getting closer where the cost of keeping going is going out number the amount coming in. So, there’s a good chance we might never make a claim, so we don’t really need the insurance. 

This job as treasurer was thrust upon when the last treasurer was ready to quit, and I was the only other able body and mind to do it. That was my only qualification. 

While I spend most of my days putting together proposals that include a fee, I don’t care much for counting money. It’s not my strong point. Jodi has always managed most of our home accounts.

That being said, I am good with money, but that’s only because I am cheap.  

My Music Journal 2025: October 13, 2025

 



Monday, October 13, 2025

Time: 7:47 PM
Song:  Only Love Can Break Your Heart
Artist: Neil Young
Mode of Consumption: Listening to MP3s on shuffle on the way to work.

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/3VTIjTBvhxsKEvMqNUYv12?si=14ae407c346e42ac

This was the third song in a row to include love and or lover in the song title. Is shuffle messing with me? Is it a cosmic message?

It started with “Love Sick” by Bob Dylan, followed by “Lover of the Night” by Mumford & Sons. I wonder if shuffle has gained intuition. Rather than random code picking songs, it’s mixing a message for me.

After the Neil Young Song, I get “Wide Awake” by Katy Perry. So, the streak ends, although this song is about getting over lost love.

When I leave work, the first song it shuffles to is “Your Love” by The Outfield. We’ve done love songs on the Pandemonium, but I don’t remember if we did a list where “Love” has to be in the title. Maybe that would be a good one for Valentines Day.

Later, as I watch the Bears game, I read Tim O’Brien’s short story, “The Things They Carried,” and it opens with one of the soldiers “carrying” his love for a girl back home. He’s uncertain if she shares the same feelings.

He ends up blaming this love for the death of one his fellow soldiers, ruining that love and turning it to hate.

All this love talk in the middle of October. Maybe it’s not the shuffle component of my phone app. Maybe it’s the universe sending me a message.

I’d love to know what that message means.


Sunday, October 12, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 12, 2025

 



Sunday, October 12, 2025

Time: 12:03 PM
Song:  She’s a Bad Mama Jama
Artist: Carl Carlton
Mode of Consumption: Playing on the radio at Jodi’s mom’s house.

Link to the song: https://open.spotify.com/track/2R0zbd80CqwoB0ORDCqDoK?si=914446bd5cdf483c

We stopped at Jodi’s mom’s house on the way home today. We went to church which was followed by a council meeting, and then we ate an early lunch (brunch, really) with my parents. 

We stopped at an estate sale with some of the most outrageous pricing that I’ve come across. They had He-Man toys from the 80s marked at like ten and fifteen dollars. These weren’t in the box or special collector’s editions, just garden-variety used toys. In nice shape, but nothing of great value. They did have the He-Man castle, and I remember how much I had wanted that thing when I was little. 

Inside the house they had a stack of old comics with prices of $50 and $75. One didn’t even have a cover on it, and none were the brand name superhero comics that sometimes can demand big money. I had hoped to pick up the pile for a buck or something to use for collages. 

After the sale, we went to Jodi’s mom’s house to pick up a couple things. Her mom wasn’t home, so while Jodi went into the house, I stood before her pond, watching the fish, and listening to the music that is always playing around the pond to deter critters from munching on the fish. 

The radio station was replaying an old Casey Kasam countdown show. I didn’t catch the year, but I did hear him introduce this song, and let me tell you, you haven’t lived until you’ve heard Casey Kasam say: “She’s a Bad Mama Jama.” 

You just never know what little pleasures life has in store for you. 

My Music Journal 2025: October 11, 2025

 


Saturday, October 11, 2025

Time: 12:23 PM
Song:  No Sugar Tonight/New Mother Nature
Artist: The Guess Who
Mode of Consumption: Listing to “American Woman” vinyl record during lunch.

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/5tASX9SKT8vFTQpfm5UVJT?si=0c535197eb7b4f66

The Cubs lost to the Brewers tonight in Game 5 of their National League Division Series. The win clinched the series for Milwaukee, which will now play the defending champion Dodgers in NLCS. 

This marks the twelfth time the Cubs have made the postseason in my lifetime. A daunting number when you consider they only made it three times in the first twenty years of my life, and one was in 1984 when I was all of two years old. 

I remember the disappointment when they were knocked out by the Giants in 1989 NLCS. Or listening in my truck to a NLDS game in 1998 while waiting for a Homecoming bonfire to start. And then there was the crushing collapse of the 2003 team in the NLCS against the Marlins. 

Of course, the biggest highlight is the 2016 World Series championship, an occasion I celebrated with Jodi and with a severely injured knee and ankle from a fall from the hay mow a week or so earlier. 

That run was emotionally and physical draining. The games were generally close, and then the Cubs fell behind Cleveland three games to one in the World Series before making the heroic comeback. 

Also, the games just go late into the night. Having to stay up one night in a week is one thing, but doing it four nights in a given week, and then often struggling to sleep with the game excitement still in the system.

So, I guess there’s a blessing in the Cubs losing. I wasn’t looking forward to another week of late-night games. It may sound like I am sort of a weak fan, but I am a realist. I like going to bed at a normal time. 

Plus, as well as the Cubs did this season, I didn’t foresee a series with the Dodgers going well. I’ll take what they achieved this season, as I think they overachieved a bit, and hope they make some moves in the offseason to take the next step. 

I can worry about the late nights if they roll around next fall. 

Saturday, October 11, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 10, 2025

 


Friday, October 10, 2025

Time: 5:29 PM
Song:  Lost River
Artist: Murder By Death
Mode of Consumption: Listing to MP3s on shuffle on way to Geneseo.

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/0JXsWn9exVbjzBGHGcdUem?si=afb680bf0035479c

We attended a performance of “The Woman in Black” at the Richmond Hill Barn Theatre in Geneseo tonight. The venue is an old barn, the stage set in the middle of the old mow. The Richmond Hill Players are local amateur actors. 

Tonight’s performance had three parts, one was the woman in black, who was a spirit with no lines. The other two parts were that of Mr. Kipps, a lawyer who experienced the haunting, and an actor who has been hired to put on a production of his story.

Mr. Kipps takes on the parts of the various people that he encountered on his journey to rural England in the early 1900s. The actor plays the part of the young lawyer. 

It was an impressive performance. 

First, the actor had a tremendous amount of dialogue, switching from being himself as an actor and then playing the part of the lawyer I’ve never quite understood how anyone is able to remember so many lines, much less deliver them in a natural, believable way.

Second, the lawyer switching parts including dialects was impressive. It would have been easy to slip into the wrong voice at any moment.

It was a spooky tale, appropriate for the season, with a fog machine and the occasional shrieks from the Woman in Black. 

I was able to guess the twist at the end by intermission, not because it was easy to catch, just that I caught the foreshadowing. 

It made me think that we need to do some study of script writing in Write On. I’ll have to look up some techniques for this and maybe an example. 

Thursday, October 9, 2025

My Music Journal 2025: October 9, 2025

 



Thursday, October 9, 2025

Time: 6:45 PM
Song:  Daddy Sang Bass
Artist: Glen Campbell
Mode of Consumption: Listing to album “O Happy Day” by Glen Campbell

Link to song: https://open.spotify.com/track/5y23DOte8uEyPvLa2oNJX4?si=d551b88c3f414210

The warnings on the side of the boxes said “Human Blood. Do not keep in extreme temperatures.” 

I wondered if that was a warning against heat or cold. Can you freeze blood? Does it lose its kick, get freezer burn, if you will? 

I was on the table as I received the second and final return of the “Power Red” process. I am a universal donor, so when I donate, I do the “Power Red” process which entails drawing the blood, separating the red blood cells and returning the rest of the plasma and saline back into my blood stream. 

It comes back at room temperature, so a stream of cool blood flows throughout the body upon return, and I usually get a faint metallic taste in my mouth. “Power Red” donations tend to go directly to emergency rooms.

It’s interesting to think about my blood going out in the world. I don’t have children, so I guess this little gift is one way for me to pass my life out into the world. I’ve done it awhile, so it’s likely, my blood kept someone alive, and it’s possible that person went on to have children of their own. So, I guess that’s a bit of immortality for my DNA. 

I hear this song about an hour after donating blood, and I wonder if there really are spirits floating around some throne singing to some God that apparently needs sang to. 

I generally don’t think so. The entire kingdom and throne imagery never worked for me. It’s too human of an image in a space devoid of humans. Perhaps there are lights or a great light, like a great bug zapper, that attracts our spirts to it. 

I do wish that when I go, that’ll I’ll be reunited with loved ones. We’ll be together again. This time forever. 

But, I generally don’t think so. 

Does an essence of me continue on? I hope so. 

Will that essence be judged by the sins of my mortal flesh? The part of me that seeks justice wants that to be the case. My sense though is that very few of us would stand up well to that judgement if the sins outlined in religious texts hold true. 

I’ve always liked the idea of reincarnation. That when my eyes close on this life, they will open in another. Not that I’ll really know it. Is that how works? It’s a neat idea, but probably not. 

My Music Journal 2025: December 11, 2025

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